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Inner Knowing

Updated: Apr 2, 2023


"A Life Half-Lived, Is Difficult To Forgive"

- Lidia Kuleshnyk, aka Lady Apona


I wrote this quote when I was in my deep healing in my late 20s, about to change the entire direction of my life. I had no idea what my future life would look like. I just knew I couldn’t go back to the life I had been living. Other than struggling with chronic pain and chronic illness, I thought I had a pretty good life; I had academic success earning three university degrees that I really valued; I had business success from running my own small business; and I was creating personal success in healing my chronic health conditions, once-and-for-all. But my dreams were telling me there was something more and something new for me to grow into. New experiences and people were awaiting that I had no idea existed. A new state of being was pulsing from deep within like the first buds of spring flowers breaking through the soil. Change was coming.

There is a natural variability in life. The ancient symbol of a spiral represents the process of continual regeneration and renewal. An upward spiral, on its side, is a wave going up. The waves have peaks and valleys, but the fundamental constant is the energy that is always moving, always flowing . . . it never ends. We can ride the waves of life with greater awareness and understanding or struggle to define and control them. The ultimate goal is to create smaller and smaller peaks and valleys so that the natural variability of the wave of your energy is less extreme, disruptive, draining, and more balanced. In a more balanced state, you can embrace the unknown and accept the flow.

When you connect with your inner knowing, your internal guidance that is leading you to greater experiences, and you discount or suppress it, you are living a half-life. And the only person you are accountable to, the only one who truly suffers, is you.

Through my 48 years of committing to my healing and personal growth, I realize the value of being given the gift of this lifetime. I take nothing for granted. I commit to the fullness of my experiences. And I let go. I have no regrets. And I have nothing to forgive.

Your life is always ahead of you . . . waiting for you. Will you live a half-life? Or will you follow your inner knowing, grow and expand into the unknown?

To help you become more Centered, Connected, and Conscious so you can move forward, consider asking yourself:

What have I created so far in my life?

What areas in my life am I already experiencing abundance?

What is my inner knowing calling me to create?

Am I creating foundations to live and achieve my inner calling. . . my passion and vision?

What has to shift, re-align or refine for me to get to my next level?

If you would like to understand “Your Unique Flow Of Living”, access your inner power and avoid the drain and decline of living a half-life, you don’t have to do it alone. I am here to support you with H.E.L.P. ...





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